2007

"Honey ,wake up "I felt several gentle touch on my arm as I tried opening my eyes that went blurry for seconds .

"Don't you want to go for your end of the year party " my mom said and I grabbed my pillow, covered my face and I groaned .

I slept at 6 am watching twilight saga .only if I knew I how much I will struggle getting my ass out of bed .

***

I was done applying little make up on as my mom helped with my jewlries and finally I was all set in my blue sparkling gown and black lace high heels .

The heels was what trended then .

"Fiona " my friend and I shared a brief hug in our sitting room .

"You look amazing ,wait what perfume are you wearing " she began to sniff me .

"Forever by Maria Carey " I chuckled at her weird sniffing .

"Ohh ,you bought.... It already ? " she gave me the down face .

"No no no .. I didn't get it . You know I wouldn't get it without you ,Scott got it for me

..for an early birthday gift " I blushed and she gasped .

"But you barely know that guy "

"excuse me does it matter " I shrugged .

"Omg! you are so lucky that the hottest guy at grandwood is hitting on you and you know I would do anything to have that kind of life ,duh " my mom walked in.

"Ladies ,if you guys keep talking you will just miss a whole lot so you can start leaving my house ,thank you " my mom sent us out before I and celia used the whole day to gist .

She knew our friendship so well already . Haha .

***

We got to the party late that already had the whole school .

It was the time everyone was asked to dance with the opposite gender on the floor .

But I just stood beside the DJ waiting for nobody.. as usual.

"hey ,fiona ,do you mind ...dancing ..with me " scott stretched his palm to me .

He was in his black tuxedo that fitted him well ,his jet black hair was jelled to the back ,omygoodness he looked georgous this night

" Umm .. okay I guess you don't want to dance with me then " he bit his down lips in slight embarrassment .

"No no no of course not ,I'm was just in... thought " I stuttered

"About ? " He asked .

"You of course duh ... " I said and i saw his face change .

"I know we are not a thing yet but .....I'm so sorry " I covered all I just said with an apology .

"OmyGod babe . It's fine ,you overthink too much " he laughed .

"Yeahhh " I bit my bottom lips in slight embarrassment .

Yeah that's was my sixteen year old self being all over the place for the most georgous guy at my high school , Scott treysong .

***

We danced that night as he kept flirting with my naive self as I couldn't contain the butterfly i felt every second in my bully .

Dancing was over ,we parted ways as I went to meet my girlfriend's who were his juniors and he went to meet his guys .

I talked non stop about what had happened to Celia and the girls .

"I told you he was definitely into you ,like he talks to no one in our class except you . " pearl seethed and I blushed like forever .

"Isn't he so georgous ahhh"Celia looked liked she was drooling over him as she stared at him from where he stood with his guys and

I rolled my eyes .

"But his into my friend and that's perfect too " Celia smiled at me and I smiled back

We used the evening to hang out and talk till the party was over .I stood at door waiting for Celia so we could go home then someone grabbed me by the hand and pulled me into the girls toilet .

"Scott .."

"Shush .." he placed one finger on his lip .

He was high . His collar was flying . He smelt of alcohol .

He was about to kiss me as I pushed him back .what's his doing .

"What's wrong " he questioned .

"I .. you have alcohol all over you " I replied .

"And what's wrong with that " he said with the most innocent face I've ever seen .

"Nothing " I replied and he immediately kissed me and started kissing me all over as he hand caressed my boobs down to my thigh as I felt he was about to raise my gown up .

"No no no ..let's not go this far please " I withdrawled my self from him.

Celia is right I barely knew him

And the promise to my mom was not to lose my virginity to just any guy I barely knew.

"What do you mean by let's not go too far .you couldnt even kiss me , After what I've done for you ! It's not even like it's going to hurt or something" He started raising his voice .

"Scott ... I'm sorry but I just ...

"You know what I don't care . I'm going to do what I'm going to do " he forced my gown up .

And pushed me to the wall with his male strength.

He took advantage of me that night .

He took my virginity without my permission .

He raped me ! .

That was how I found myself crying in the female bathroom bleeding .

I was horrified at what had just happened .

I couldn't believe it

I panicked at the fact that if someone came and saw me like this so I cleaned up and called my mom to pick me .

I avoided celia that night and went home with my mom .

****

"What's wrong you've not been speaking to me since you arrived home and I asked if you wanted me to serve you dinner and you didn't even say nothing " my mom said .

"Can you leave pls" I replied .

"So you've started kicking me out now " she said .

"Mom pls I just want to have some lone time " I said in my weakest tone and she sighed .

"Okay then and just so you know you can talk to me if you need me ..okay ? " She assured me ,smiled at me and exited my room .

How could I open up to my mom about something this weird .

Three month passed from me healing from my traumatic rape experience as Mr rapist did everything he could to ignore me at school .I couldn't tell no one not even celia because I was too scared about what they were going to think or say . I didn't want to start any drama so I kept it to myself .

Two weeks passsed not until I found out I was pregnant ..

I wasn't too surprised because even before then I guessed I was pregnant .

The only person who was trying to handle the shock was my mom which forcefully made me explaining all that had happened as tears flooded my face.

We try contacting Scott but it all failed because he already graduated and moved .

For five good years I raised Selena alone .

****

Seven years later _____

I sat at the front of my computer drinking hot coffee , applying for jobs anywhere I could find .

"Mummy " Selena screamed my name as she ran inside and bounced on me, she always like that , energetic after nap

"Ouch Selena " i laughed .

"Did I hurt you mummy " she said looking for where I was affected as my mom was walking up with a whole lot of candies in a tray and Selena left my side to meet my mom .

"Mom not the chocolates again , all her teeth is going to fall off and when that happens it's going to be your fault "

"She's six year old . I had no teeth at the front at that age . It's not the chocolates . Right ? Selena " my mom faced Selene as she nodded with alot of excitement .

"Grandma can I have the candy now " she asked politely .

"Not until you surprise me by eating your whole dinner " my mom spoke to her .

"Okay I promise grandma " Selene promised as my mom winked at me .

"Now let's go eat dinner ,before candy" my mom took her in .

What would I do without my super woman .

I put my focus back to my computer searching for a job for another four hours not until I finally came across something that suited my comfort with a very good pay so immediately applied with haste .

I do all this for my daughter ,I just want to get the best job so I can give her the good life she deserves.

Nothing makes me more stronger than she does .