I woke up in the morning , still feeling very sleepy . I now badly in need a tea or coffee. This is my routine every morning .After I finishing my natural routine in my bathroom I went downstairs looking for my ma bcz I know she would be very angry with me for my bad timetable . At the same time I'm very sure she already made my breakfast . In this way I spend my almost every morning.

SORRY !!! I forgot to introduce myself . I'm Ayat Chowdhury .I'm 18 years old short, long wavy hair , slight dark skin and overall an average girl. I live in Dhaka, Bangladesh with my family,I mean joint family . Right now I'm studying in Dhaka govt. college in inter 2nd year. I lead a very simple life with no extra drama.

Besides my family I have very few friends bcz I'm a very introvert person with a very strong personality, very strange na....that's how I am . I have few friends whom I trust but not fully bcz i don't like to share my very personal things with anyone .Last but not the least I have a very special person in my life that no one knows . He is one of my friends . His name is Musfiqur Rahim . Everyone call him musfiq but I call him mushi .

He is my bestfriend!!!!!!!

Ten years ago in 2011,the accurate date is 1st January 2011 we first met in the school bcz every year that particular day our govt. provide new books in every school . From the very first day ,very first glance ,very first moment we hited off very well with each other .From day one I like him very much but don't know what it is or what it called.

Five years later in 2016 I finally realized that I'm in love with him from the very first moment . But I'm afraid how he is gonna react about this matter and I don't want to lose him at any cost .So,I decided to keep my feelings as a top secreat deep inside my good for nothing heart always. From that time I kept myself in a safe distance from him.From that time I kept avoiding him.I talk to but not as usually as before.I think he noticed my uneasiness around him that's bcz one day he came to me and asked me but I avoid this topic.I think he don't want to be friends with me anymore bcz last 3 days he don't contact me in any way .

Untill that day.........

My avoiding game run very smoothly and naturally at first few days bcz of this avoiding game I intract with more people .In the past I used to talk to him only ,I didn't have time for anyone at that time .My whole world goes around him .

At that time I came into talking term with Arif one of my classmate whom i till date don't noticed .One day he came to me for the purpose of borrowing a note book and while talking he tell me a funny story about one of his gf . ohh I forgot to tell he is a playboy atleast in front of everyone .okkk back to the point while he is telling me his story I couldn't control myself and laugh out loud and then suddenly mushi came out off nowhere and started to hit Arif..

I don't understand anything as for what happen for first few seconds then I realise ,and after realization hit me hard only one thing in my mind that I need to stop him any how .

I'm trying to stop him but he don't stop and suddenly he look at me with widen eyes .He look totally shocked......

Than realization hit me............

I didn't realised that i was crying by then. He stop hitting Arif and holding my hand took me to a vacant room and lock the door. He kept looking at me for a few seconds, then asked me loud-why are crying,are you crying for that boy?I wanted to tell him that i cried bcz i have never seen him like that. Sometime ago he was really very aggressive and right now as well.I'm totally shocked,seeing me no-stop crying instead of talking, he semms to grew more angry.Then suddenly he came closer to me and said in a calm voice that made me feel Chil in my spine- that's why are you avoiding me, now i know the reason. Then he held me tighter by my shoulder and said to me or i can say order me-Ayat listen to ne carefully and mark my word well into your little brain that you are not allowed to get close or i say intimate with any boy except me cz you should know whom you belongs to.After that he just went out from the room closing the door behind him with a bang.

After that day we Don't about it.For some days we Don't interact with each other.After few days we slowly come back to normal, not to mention It's only on the surface. Everyone knows nothing what actually heppened between us, but we know everything changed after that incident, ofcourse in a good way.....

After that Incident what happened between us few days ago, we pretend as if nothing happened but deep down we know, we committed with each other. We are going out with our friends like as always but now I'm always stay cautious around him.

Our little little moments are very important to me. Like sometimes our skin touch when we both wanted to grab something. Our few moments eye locks,our extra care for each other. But i don't know what his feelings about these things, is he feeling same as mine.But deep down i know that these little moments are also important to him. Nowadays he often get jealous and that's so easily. One day bcz of this jealousy we almost got caught........

It’s our annual function day at college in a few days.So,as the representative of our class i need to perform a stage show with my few fellow classmate.so, recently i need to practice for my upcoming act. In this act, which i have to perform on the day of our college's annual function i will perform with a boy, who is my fellow classmate as a pair.While practising we become friends. After our practice sessions when i am ready to pack my things and about to leave the practice room, suddenly my act Partner Riyan call me from behind and ask for my number.I Don't think too much before giving him my number and leave form the college towards my home........