How many changes can occur in your life within the time span of 4 months?

How many times you needed to cry just to numb yourself and to not feel the tiredness and pain?

How long does it take before the all of the suffering comes to an end?

It was an everyday question for her. Every day, since everything turned upside down, she always kept on wondering how many more days or weeks she needs to suffer everything alone. Sometimes, she just wanted to run and escape everything but of course, she won’t do that. Everything might change but Alexei will keep on fighting and promise to not give up.

It was 10:15 in the morning but she was already sweating and tired. But nevertheless, her natural beauty and charm is still visible and everyone that might saw her in any kind of situation can’t deny the fact that Alexei is indeed gorgeous.

“Alex, room 417 is asking for a room cleaner,” one of her coworkers reminded her. She just nodded her head and smiled.

She was currently cleaning on one of the biggest rooms in the 3rd floor. It was just a man who stayed there for 2 days so there was only a quite few messes, but she still needs to clean the room thoroughly to assure that all of the rooms are cleaned and their services are good.

It was almost lunch time when she finished cleaning the rooms in the 3rd floor that was assigned to her. She plans on cleaning 3 more rooms before taking her lunch break.

She was pushing the cart with all the cleaning materials when a mosquito bite her in her arms that shocked her and unfortunately, she lost her focus that she bumped into someone.

Some of the liquid detergent spilled into the woman’s dress. Both of them was shocked.

“Fuck,” she heard the woman cursed.

Alexei bowed her head, “I’m so sorry ma’am,” she bowed multiple times hoping that the woman will just forgive her but of course, no rich person will let someone like her to just go away with this kind of stupidity and mistakes.

Of course, she knew, she was once like them and the memories made her want to cry.

“What kind of stupidity is that?! Can you fucking use your eyes and look where you are going?!” the woman shouted. Alexei, on the other hand, chose to remain silent.

“Where is your manager? Why are you letting idiots to work here?! Gosh, my outfit is ruined!”

“M-ma’am, I’m sorry. I'll take care of it. Please, don't let my management know about this. Please ma’am,” Alexei pleaded and couldn’t help but to go near the woman and touch its hands.

“Don’t fucking touch me, you, stupid trash! Argh, iw!” the woman pushed her, causing her to fall down. Alexei immediately stood up and plead again but the woman kept on screaming. They start to get attention. Alexei was also nervous because it might even reach their management.

The woman was still shouting when the assistant manager hurriedly approached them.

"Ma'am, what happened?" the assistant manager asked the woman Alexei bumped into before taking a glance at her and looking at her, up and down.

“That f*cking stupid bitch,” the woman pointed towards Alexei’s direction, “bumped into me! My outfit is now ruined, do you know how much it costs? Argh, what a big stupid! She’s just going to push the cart and used her eyes, still she managed to cause this mess!” the woman replied to the assistant manager while looking sharply at her.

“On behalf of our workers, I am the one who apologizes. Our manager is requesting you to go to her office to discuss the damages,” the manager bowed her head to the woman. The woman that Alexei bumped into rolled her eyes before marching up to the elevator.

The assistant manager looked at Alexei’s sharply. Alexei just remained silent while bowing her head.

“Next time, be careful. Not because you are related to the owner means you are allowed to spread your shitty attitude and stupidness here. You are causing too much trouble, what a brat,” The assistant manager spitted out while raising her eyebrow. Alexei wanted to spoke back and defend herself but she remained silent. She doesn’t have the rights because she was just a simple hotel stewardess and fighting back won’t give her any good.

One of Alexei’s co-worker, Mika, approached her, “Are you okay? You can take a rest for a while, I’ll take care of the assigned room to you,” Mika said with a concerned voice. Alexei appreciated it but she just smiled lightly before shaking her head.

“No need to worry, I’m fine. I can handle this, thank you,” Alexei answered with a smile. Everyone who get to see her knows that it is a fake smile, Mika just hugged her assured her that she can always come and talked to her.

“If you need someone, just come and fine me, okay? Don’t forget to eat your lunch. Please, take care of yourself,” Mika’s last words before proceeding to the next room.

Alexei took a deep breathe before arranging some of the materials that has been scattered due to her collision with the woman earlier.

After she finished picking the cleaning materials, she pushed the cart again, but this time she was carefully pushing it, afraid that she might bumped into someone again.

Workers like her are not allowed to use the elevators so she proceeds to the door at the end of every hallway where you can find the stairs. She needs to clean room 417 that is located on the 4th floor.

She was on the middle of walking upstairs when she felt her foot hurts. She couldn’t help but to sat down in the stair case, letting herself to rest for a while before continuing her work.

The scenario earlier suddenly comes across her mind. She felt really nervous and afraid. If she was the was the same Alexei 4 months ago, she will definitely fought back. No one can shout at her like that and call her stupid but of course, that was all in the past.

Then she suddenly thought about all of the changes to her life and to herself.

It was a total of 4 months before her life completely turned upside down. From a party girl, to a hotel stewardess.

It was exhausting that she couldn’t help to compare her old life to the situation she had right now. It seems like her everyday work is never ending that she just wanted to run and escape.

She needed to clean all the room that was assigned to her. She needed to satisfy the customers. From going to work in 8:00 in the morning, from going home late at night at 10:00. She felt so done with it.

She misses her old life where she doesn’t need to think of anything like this. Where there were no suffering. She was the boss and the princess in her own world, what happened?

She was used to this kind of life and routine. She was used on the feeling of exhaustion and pain. At first, it was hard but she can’t do anything but to accept the fact that she had no choice. But does she really have no choice?

Her train of thoughts stopped when a guy spoke.

She was nervous because they weren’t allowed to take a rest during work hours and the guy might be one of the guests and he might report her to their manager.

She had done enough stupidity for this day and she can’t afford to make another one.

She stood up and ready to apologized but she was surprised when she saw the guy’s face. It was so familiar she went pale when she realized who the guy is.

“Surprise?” the guy spoke while wiggling his eyebrows. She felt annoyed but she immediately composed herself.

“Sir, guests are not allowed to this part of the hotel,” she tried to spoke calmly; she doesn’t want to act rudely in front of others especially when she was at work. Ah, some circumstances in life really changed a person.

“Guest? Hmm…” the guy walked towards her direction. This kind of scene was really familiar with her. “Am I a guest? Are you sure?” the guy mumbled closely in her ear and she realized, everything hasn’t change. That there are still some things about her that won’t change. And this guy in front of her still can make her feel confused.

“What are you doing here?” she asked in disbelief while looking directly to his eyes. Her voice was weak and her hands are shaking. But most of all, she was embarrassed. Never did she plan nor dream to be seen on this kind of situation by an old acquaintance, especially this guy in front of her.

“Should I be the one asking that? What are you doing here?” it was full of pain and resentment and it made her feel uncomfortable. She doesn’t know and she surely doesn’t want to answer him so she just gulped and bitted her lips.

“I tried to find you everywhere. No one wants to give me answers so I tried my very best to find you but I didn’t want to see you in this kind of place, doing shitty works and stuffs.” the guy looked at her directly at her eyes. Their closeness was making her feel warmth but it was uncomfortable for her.

‘Why?” she asked defiantly, “I didn’t need you. I didn’t need any one of you so please, leave me alone,” she stood up, ready to push the cart again and leave but what the guy said made her stop.

“Running again? Can’t you do something aside from running?”

“Mind you, I am not running from anything,” that was her final remarks before pushing the cart again.

Her thoughts are still in the unexpected scenario with the guy when she reached the 4th floor.

She went inside an empty room that was scheduled for her to clean. She felt so breathless. can’t control herself she couldn’t help but to sit in the floor.

A tear escape from her eyes before memories started to flashed inside her mind.