PROLOGUE
"Are you sure about this, Syrine?" I looked at him with lifeless eyes. I could see the pain in his eyes. I'm sorry. I have to do this.
"Yes! Let's take a break..." I stood up and was about to leave him, but suddenly his hand grabbed my arm, making me stop. I eyed him. I also averted my eyes because I couldn't look into his eyes. I might take back everything I told him.
"P-please... D-don't leave me ..." I heard his sobs, which became the way for the tears I was hiding to fall.
"N-no, this is my decision. Please leave me alone! I don't need you anymore, I just used you!" I shouted and looked at him. I saw the fainting pain in his eye. I felt his grip on my arm loosen until he released me.
"B-but w-why?" He was already bent over and I could clearly see his tears dripping from his pants. I cried more, because seeing him like this was breaking my heart.
"Because of your Dad! I'm an agent and my mission is to get your trust to capture your dad! He's a f*cking druglord! And I won! Your dad is in prison now. I don't need you anymore," I said to him
No, I have not finally won this game, because I lost. I fell into my own trap. I fell in love with him, and in my world, loving like him is f*cking prohibited!
"You're just lying, aren't you Sy? Baby please! Tell me that's not true!" He looked into my eyes and I could see the sadness, pain, and anger in his eyes. I can’t blame him because I toyed with him.
"It's the truth, I played you... You lost in this game and I won." I smirked. Hiding my true feelings with that smirk. Because behind that smirk is my tearing pieces.
"I changed for you! I disobeyed my own father! I told all my secrets! I thought.. I thought all of our love for each other was true. It was just a game that you played. But why are you playing with me? Why are you doing this, Syrine? I love you! Tell me, am I not enough? Tell me what's missing? I'll forgive you just ...just don't leave me like this! Please! F*ck! " He held his hair like crazy. I looked away. Maybe I couldn't stop myself from hugging him and telling him how much I love him. But...I can't. I can't do it anymore.
"I-I'm sorry... There are really things you will never understand..." I bowed and suppressed a loud sob. It was so hard to free him! Damn! I can't let him go. I want him by my side and I don't want to leave him!
"Then let me know! Damn Syrine! That's a useless reason!" he shouted. No. You can't understand me.
"But always remember that I love you so much. And I'm just doing this for you. I don't want to hurt you anymore," I said as my tears started to fall like a faucet. I'm really sorry. I have to do this, baby.
"You f*cking hurt me already! And I'm sorry for falling in love with you Syrine. And making myself fall into your trap. I'm such a dumb! F*cking dumb! I don't care about you anymore." He stood up and walked away. All I could do was follow him with my eyes.
I want to chase him and tell him to forgive me and start over again, but tomorrow is the day. It's not possible anymore. He will be even more hurt when he finds out. I can't do that to him. I'm so inlove with him that I can't even tell him my true reason why I'm leaving.
"Miss Syrine, the airplane is ready," I looked at Veto, daddy's butler. He was very formal in his tuxedo and he was standing outside the car because he was waiting for me to come inside.
I walked over to him and got into the backseat. We are going to the airport where the private airplane of Yatsuhiros is waiting. Yes, my family. Tomorrow, I will go to Europe to pay my debts. My debts because of my mistake. And this will cost my own life.
Yes, tomorrow is the day... my death day.
And I, Keiichi Syrine Yatsuhiro, Spy Agent Sy, swore to the organization that I belong that I wouldn't do anything against my organization. And if I violate the organization's law, my punishment will be 'DEATH'.