They say once God give something, no matter what ,God gonna take it back again , nothing is granted , not life nor death.

Because in life and death we shall always apart.

In life , we live to die and our souls return back to him we don't own life and in love as much as you fall in love you sooner or later gonna fall out of it not by your own will, as not even our hearts belongs to us , so nothing really last .

They say you live only for the thing you miss the most the thing that you never had , never been given .

until you find it and you can leave peacefully and ascend .

Some people who time runs out them and they die without even glimpsing the fact of it .

My mother feared so .

She once had all , love and life , until she married .....

My mother never had a child , as every night she begged and preyed until she collapses hard on the ground hitting exhaustedand powerless.

To wake up the next day to do it all over again , in non ending loop .

"your highness you have to stop , you are pushing your limits and our Lord gonna punish us" said her servant .

But my mother never listened , as you can see, she was the queen of Alta , a great kingdom where no one cared much about anything they got all money , food , slaves ,servants and kids , but my mom wasn't given the child birth gift, yet, they said that she is sterile as a dessert where no water or greens ,just nothing there , that what she was ,she never give birth to a royal blood for 20 years of marriage , my father, yeah my father , the king didn't wait for her any longer,actually he took many mistresses for his hoggish enjoyment but only one just would conquer his ego and win over that much and brutally controlled him like a toy for her , Asian .

Unlike my kindhearted mom , Alayas , she didn't only distance the king from other mistresses and the Queen herself and gave him 7 kids , she became the true ruler behind my father , her rope doll.

Broken-hearted Queen had nothing but pray and cry .

One night after crying long enough that her eyes were engraved by dark ashes of sadness, falling to the ground who has been more comforting to her heart, a heavy rain just started to fall , to be fair it was the strongest rain ever , the rain was glowing icy blue fall , yet doesn't give cold chills but rather warmth to the bones , that night the king wandered in the castle unheeding to anything or anyone talking even Asian herself ,until he found himself in front of my mom room, the black curtained door , he entered by pushing it by both hands just to find her in that miserable state where he let a toreful sigh, she lying on the ground , her hair wetted by the rain ,she is sweating like a molten ice , her cheek reder than 18 years old innocent virgin , and she just unsealed her eyes , raised herself and crawled to his legs where she bowed even more for someone already on the ground ,the king found himself lifting , carrying and putting her to the bed , realising soft kiss to her forehead that kiss that was poured down to her perished soul reaching her lips to start the flames that night for her body and for her heart .

Needless to say 9 months later I was brought to life .

They say that night was a curse and a blessing , they really can't tell , that night all flowers bloomed and reached climax just to die next day leaving a sightful scene of dead crops and birds on the grounds , so they called it a curse.

My mom became pregnant surprisingly so she called it a bless .

Asian knew about what happened that night and managed to not only panish my mom and her loyal servants but she kept her imprisoned in far away , in the outskirts of the kindome , in abandoned castle and she had forbidden anyone of saying her name even the king himself wouldn't dare defy her ...

my mom didn't care much , she finally got me .

when I was born , I was born with light transparent skin as glass you can see through to my veins which is like a river through ice.

My hair was luminous , crimson sun's last strings of dusk .

My eyes was glowing aurora not a single color , just radiating all colors.

To be honest I never looked like my mom who was blonde and freckled fawn like aged strawberries.

since my birth my dad never paid me a visit or sent me a flower nor a dress, not a father would do ,actually he never saw me , like he never acknowledged that fact that I was alive.

That hurted me but my mom devoted all her time and love for me .

so here I am flowering and nourishing like I would have never been .

I am Muons Alyas, the last seed of the uprising Alta kingdom.