‘’Sean ,Do you find me weird ?’’ I asked him .My one hand on my hip and another on the door to stabilise myself .He was furiously typing on his laptop ,when he stopped to look up and notice me .He eyed me up and down and then his hazel got stuck at a particular point on my T-shirt.
I looked down and noticed a brown spot on My ..sorry his T-shirt which was going wrong by my futile attempt of rubbing it off with my wet hands.
Back in the kitchen …
I was trying my best to make a frappuccino the same as Starbucks minus the extra ice that is added to make the half filled cup go full .
while whipping the ting job or more like they kicked me out because little Nora wasn’t fond of ice creams .I mean she was asking . I gave it and then her parents threw me out saying I was the reason behind her cough .So I landed up in the neighbourhood cafeteria as a waitress and every month I received a threat that they will fire me as I am way too clumsy and practically spills half of the drink in the tray only . I wasn’t too beautiful but still a harvard graduate was sitting in the next room ,who was also my boyfriend from the last two years .Sean was such a perfectionist .a perfect SAT score ,A perfect face ,no abs but still one could practically drool over him and still he chose a girl who was practically incompetent to him . I am not saying he should move on and get a better one as I am the better better best one but still like he never tried to change me .why ?
To get my answers .I decided to march up to our room and ask him directly. I pushed opened the door and found him typing on his laptop with the investment green folders besides him and my bunny headband was proudly smiling at me from atop his head as I love to mess with his hair .I just put one of these on his head and make him my bunny when he was busy and I see he didn’t removed it ..
Obedient but why ?
Back to present
I looked up to meet his eyes and searched for something to say but only could come out with a hushed sorry .He looked down and continued his work . I was about to leave when I heard the dickhead voice behind me .
‘’Remember to clean it ‘’
I spinned fast on my heel and narrowed my eyes at him .
‘’I know I have to ‘’
‘’Yeah like the last time !’’ He added sarcastically
My lip twitched at his snide remark and I remembered the incident that happened exactly 2 months ago .
So I was trying this really cool DIY hack on how to convert your boyfriend shirt into a crop top and I was by far successful but the shirt was loose and was not going up my belly button ,which was adjusted by scissors . And I have to admit I was looking super cute . By the time I was done Sean came out of the shower clad in nothing but his white towel .I turned around to show him my proud work when I noticed his expression go from calm to speechless .
Maybe I was looking too good for him to digest but when he went past me and searched the cupboard he found the box I pulled out the shirt from .He pulled it out and showed me the bill ..$78 ..cheap
Until I noticed two zeroes following it .I almost fainted but Sean caught me .
It was the pre-ordered blue Armaani shirt he bought for his boss .I peered at him innocently . he smirked and said ‘’Babe if it took $ 7800 for you to look cute ,we might just adopt a kitten .’’ I regained my composure and freed myself from his arms and he laughed looking at my annoyed expression .but my mood was still off so he pressed my back to his chest and placed his chin on my neck ,slowly trailing his lips along my neckline and said ‘’ I love you but please your DIY hacks are not worth it when I can buy you a new tank top .’’ I smiled but then the asshole had to say something at the end to ruin the perfect ‘’ c’mon now cheer up and make it my blue not yours’’ .
When the flashback was over I sensed the reality of situation .It was always me 0 and him 100
‘’If I am so clumsy and useless for you then why not leave me?’’
He immediately looked up
‘’Yeah why not leave me .when I am not smart enough to walk besides you and jobless and not pretty ,hell even your assistant was more classy than me .and even I hold the fork in right hand .so why not move on’’
and after looking at me for a couple of minutes .with an exhale he closed his laptop and swiftly removed his glasses .He shifted a little and patted the seat next to him .though I was annoyed ,like a wanton dog I followed and sat beside him .He pulled me closer to him by my shirt and made me lay my head on his shoulder and let us both get comfortable on his big bed .
‘’You are not at all useless and disappointing.You are very much normal .and you have a job ,no matter small or big .and just because You hold fork in right hand doesn’t mean I will leave you .And comparing yourself to others is what every girl do .’’ I rolled my eyes but still let him continue
He ran his smooth fingers in my hair and spoke in his mesmerising voice
‘’You are not clumsy or bad ,you just have insecurities about you which was totally normal ,we all have but we all have learned to control them and you too but because I live in your close vicinity .It highlights your insecurity even more .And things like you holding fork in right and not left was you just seeking comfort on what you do rather following some manners copied from some etiquette class magazine and I love you for you .
‘’Why?’’
‘’Huh”
‘’Why do you love me ?’’
He straightened himself and asked ‘’wanna head out for breakfast .I am feeling hungry ‘’
And just like that he ended the conversation without answering my question which he never answered .