Can I Think Historical event Chapter one Do you know what's more scary than closing your eyes everyday?? It's when you don't know a thing about yourself. It's like you just open your eyes and meet yourself somewhere unknown. You have no idea how you got there or when you are leaving. That's how my life have been for years. According to madam Bose, am twenty years old and my name is Debbie. Asides that,I know nothing about myself I've tried to ask my boss severally but the only thing she kept saying is the fact that am nothing but a slave in her house. I can't leave, I can't move and am stuck here for as long as I live . It's four o'clock. I quickly say my prayer. Even though am not allowed to leave the house or go to churches, I still believe there's a God out there and he hears me daily. I rush out and enter the kitchen quickly. Breakfast is mandatory to be ready at exactly 6oclock. And I will have to make sure the whole house is impeccably neat or that's mean no food for me for a week. I'm cooking a fried rice today cos that's what Jane wants this morning. The rice was already but am just dusting the chair. I just pray madam doesn't come out now. My heart was beating faster as I quickly dust the chair. Just when I was taking the napkin away, Jane walks in body tight gown. I love that gown and am sure it will look extra good on me cos am thick with huge ass and my breast is moderate but Jane is tall with moderate ass and breast. Jane is currently in university and she's three years older than me. 'Im hungry, 'she says lazily and walk to the dinning table. I walk in quickly and wash my hand. I dish out some of the rice with a fried turkey lap. I sometimes wonder if the turkey laps tastes different from the turkey neck and legs cos that what I get to eat. I have never tasted a turkey laps and arm and I don't know if I will ever do. Eew I place it before Jane together with her favorite juice. I watch her eat for a while and my stomach rumble as response. Madam enters almost immediately, 'Good morning, 'she says to Jane but Jane was on call and didn't answer I kneel quickly, 'Good morning ma', she was already dress for work, 'should I bring your food? ' 'Yes, do so, 'she says and I rush into the kitchen for her food as well. Madam Bose is a business woman that goes from one country to another. God, I love that job and I pray I be able to do it in the future. But I don't have the criteria and as long as I know, I might die trying. Madam Bose was eating when I enter the kitchen to eat my food too. I eat in a hurry and rush to the laundry room. I don't have family and I don't get paid here. It's like someone dash me out to be a maid forever

The bell almost made me walk outta my skin. I rush out into the kitchen to prepare snacks for lunch. Madam Bose is out already and Jane is not going to lecture. She hasn't been going for a while anyways. She does as though she owns the school. 'Where the fuck is this girl! 'i hear Jane's voice and my heart skip a beat. I run out of the kitchen into the sitting room and there she is, clad in pink baggy hoodie exposing her fresh light skinned lap. Beside her is a guy of tanned colour, clad in blue jean with white hoodie and a sneaker. 'Ma, I was making the cake, 'i bend slightly cos she has advised me never to look her in the face whenever am in front of her. 'Yes, 'she says uninterested. 'Bring it to my room, 'she says and pull the guy up and they both disappear into the room, her room I walk back into the kitchen and the cake was done already. I bring it out and cut off some slices. I put the slices on the plate, and pour a 5alive juice in three bottles. I take one and drank it. You know, I can't do this when Jane or madam Bose is around. So, well, opportunity comes but once. I carry the tray full of the cakes and juice toward Jane's room. I start hearing deep moan as I move nearer. And the more nearer I get, the more loud it is. Well, am not surprised... This isn't the first time a guy will be banging Jane in this house. Even madam Bose doesn't know the kind of child Jane is cos she's always showing this holier-than-thou attitude whenever she's near. I knock the door and no one answered. They must be deep in their foolish ecstasy. I walk in nevertheless and my heart almost escape at the sight before me. Jane was completely naked with her hands and kneels on the bed and the guy kneeling on the bed and holding her waist closer to him, then going in a fast rythm. This must be what they call the doggy style. I put the tray down quietly and walk out. God, have mercy on me. 'Wake up you sleepy head! 'a voice scream and my eyes open. I get up from the bed and look at Jane 'Take, 'she stretch out a small box ,a small paper and a thousand naira note to me. I collect it quickly but gave her a skeptical look, 'Go to the address on the paper and seek for Shola. Give the box to her. Tell her you are from Jane, 'she says and walk out I smile and I quickly wear a jean trouser with a jean jacket. These clothes are clothes Jane told me to throw away. Well, that's how I get new clothes to wear. I walk into the sitting room and the other guy was still there. Look at them, nonsense people. I walk by him and out of the house. For once, I feel less suffocated, I feel free. But even if I decide to spend more time outside, where should I go? I don't even have any money on me and Jane is going to demand for the change of the money. I better just run her errand and

stay where fate has created me into