There was a cold night. That night she could feel her heart. Everytime the wind blew, she could feel the coldness in her heart. She always thought about her past. Why she did so? What made her took that step? Why she never dared to speak about her feelings in front of anyone? If she ever thought about someone who was really close to her heart that was noone. She never trusted anyone. She was always alone. Her heart was empty and full of grief and sadness.
She sat on stairs and look into the dark sky. It was almost midnight. Although she had a big family brothers and sister but she always felt alone. She was all alone and thinking if there would be someone who will ever love her the way she wants?. Will anyone wants to really talk to her. She was not very talkative. She never shared her personal feelings with anyone. Neither she trusted any women. She had no best friends.
In her past she had made terrible mistakes which made her family to feel disgusted about her. They would always say " bitch just go away" " you are nothing just a slut" " you have no character". The words hurted her deeply. It wasn't all her fault. She always thought she is not the only one guilty.
She slept crying all alone silently.
The next morning she wake up. She got admission in engineering college and she started to get ready for the big day. It was her first day. She was standing next to her almirah looking for some clothes. She almost had nothing to wear. She never asked for new clothes. Afterall she was not worth it. If she ask she would have to listen all kind of words which she never wanted. Afterall she was also a human being. She was in hurry so she just pick out randomly and went for college.
College was okay. She was not friendly at all. She never wanted to have friends. She was shy in reality. She never tried to approach herself or dare to ask someone to be her friend. She just attended her classes and went home. All the days were same.
She noticed a boy in class who was always absent in class. On day the teacher asked about the boy and it turns out to be sitting next to her. It was this time she actually noticed the guy. His name was mark. That was what she heared. She wasn't interested obviously. She was returning home when she find he was also walking with her. She reluctantly started to talk with him. " why are you always absent. Why don't you attend classes?" She said. He started looking at her. He wasn't in mood to talk. He got angry but thought to answer her." i don't want to study" he said. She was confused. Why would someone spend so much fees amount and wouldn't want to study. She thought he might be crazy or rich so she out of curiosity asked " what is the reason for admission then". He said " some chapters should never be read". She felt like he was holding some pain. She looked into his eyes. His eyes were full of hatred and pain. She tried to read those eyes and felt that she could feel that pain. It reminded her the same pain she has been holding in her heart for long time. She wanted to hold that moment and talk some more. But she dare not to say. What will she ask him more. He was holding that pain which she had in her heart. The reason might be different. But they were both suffering.