A tear rolled down on my cheeks as I closed the book, the cold wind blew from  ajar window in the library. The slow rhythm of music I was listening to on my earphones made me feel the sadness even more.

I feel like I'm in a movie where, I'm the leading lady, my man left and broke up with me. Because of that, I ran in the middle of the rain while crying and feeling the pain and agony of my heart being crushed. My body was soaked in the pouring rain.

I will be startled when someone pulled my wrist, I will look back at him and I'll see the sadness in his eyes. He will apologize to me and gently kiss me on my lips, never did I know that it will be the last. After days, he passed away because of a serious illness and   the last word I would hear from him is he always love me.

"PSST! Look, Jezel feels like she's on a movie again!" Yuri laugh, gossiping with Lea and Daisy about me. They were my friends.

"Don't mind her, that's the problem of not having a love life" Azalea joked.

I rolled my eyes. Here we go that damn love life again. Love my ass. I really hate it when people talking about love, like, it's just a literally shit in this world. I can’t really get why some people are blind to love, they don’t even know if they’re sure of that shit.

"Whoaa, this story is really worth to read, it has a kissing scene at the end!" Azalea giggled.

Ew, that's corny!

I just remain quiet, staring at the shelves. I don't know why I feel really sad on the story. It feels like it kills me too in pain. I usually read tragic stories, that's my story taste though. I love tragics but this hits me different. It feels like I'm really into it, It made me feel like, I'm the protagonist.

The last line of the leading lady was really heartbreaking. I sighed,  my eyes back to carry tears again but Yuri Laughed hard.

"Hey! Delete that!" I said and try to get her phone! She got a stolen shot of me! It's embarrassing! I literally looked like an ugly ducking in stolen photos!

"Okay, okay!" Yuri lower the tone of her voice when the librarian gave her the third offense of being loud.

"I'll delete it, okay?  just..

just stop your fucking dramas. You look disgusting. Don't assume you look cute or pretty on that teary eyes, You looked like a messed shit" she said while deleting those stolen photos. She gave me her phone for me to double check. She really knew my trust issues.

"Shhh, Hey, Jezel. What's with the dramas again?" Daisy asked me, she was reading a book about chemistry and science realated. Daisy was the oldest among us.

"I think she read a tragic, that's why" Azalea answer.

I'm the youngest among of my Friends, , I'm Jezel Somera, 19 years old, thirds year college and taking a nursing course.

"TCH. It's Yuri's fault! Her mouth is like a microphone!"

"Your mouth is also loud, Jezel. There's no difference" Daisy Joked.

Yuri and Azalea were busy with their own business while walking behind us.

I just sighed. It was a cold afternoon, the weather is about to rain. "Poor Jezel, cry baby" Yuri teased like an idiot.

"Shut up, atleast I'm not crying when drunk like , I loved you, Am Inot enough? Why did you leave me?!" I said, copying her voice in an overacting way. I laughed hard when her face turned into red.

"Atleast I'm not wasting my time to imagine impossible things like you. I'm not fantisizing peoples that are not meant to be in this world! I'm not crying for those fictional characters!" She argued and walked away with Azalea who's laughing because of us.

I caught Daisy secretly laughing too behind me. "What?!" I irritably asked. "It's really heartbreaking!" I insist.

Daisy clear her throat, trying not to laugh then smiled. " So, what's the title?" She asked.

"The dawn of a new history" I answered.

"Who's the author?" She asked again.

I stopped walking. "I... I can't remember—maybe I just forget to know the author. I'll look it maybe next time" I uttered.

Daisy took a deep breath. " How could you tell those next times when you don't believe on second chances?" She asked.

That's true, I don't believe chances. I don't give second chance. "Jezel, don't you ever think why people shoud gave second chances?" She asked. "It's because, all of us deserves it. Look, even God give us chance—"

"But I'm not God" I scolded.

"For me, giving chance to others making less to your value. You know what? The more you give chance, the more people won't be afraid to loose you" I said in lower tone.

Daisy eyes remain in our way. She sighed heavily and slowly looked at me.

"If so.." she said while looking straight to my eyes. " I wish you would be brave for being a dawn of a new history"

My heart beat fast, my brows furrowed, I don't know why those words gave me an impact.

I shooked mu head, It's Daisy, her words were really deep and mysterious.