I just finished my exams. Came out of the hall. There are some students around me the girl next to me on exam hall and the boy who smiled at me are sitting around me but I'm just sitting here alone. I don't know how to talk to them. I took my phone and off the airplane mode and on the data and boom nothing happened just my friend text me he just took medical which was applied for the past exams. And one Facebook notification yeah nothing to surprise it's also just someone post some memes on the page I'm following.
I feel alone so i checked on Ash he is class now, yes he is following some courses so he was offline. I had no one to call so i call my mom and continue the conversation without cutting the call because I would feel alone after 7 minutes Of conversation she said ' You are free so that's why you called me and talking ' you know what yeah that's true but it's hurting me. I just cut the call saying ok I won't call you anymore.
I don't want to cry, I'm not sad but I'm not happy either.. but something emptiness filled me up. No special messages, nothing interesting even my exams are sulking. My university life which is getting bore and hard at the same time. Should i say i want to quit my studies and do something that makes me flutter.. computers made me flutter codes made me happy... But now it's just numbers and numbers it's boring..
Okay I'm hungry i have biscuits on my bag. I want to eat them but somehow I feel shy or awkward maybe. The girls next to me are eating some biscuits may be it's like milk biscuit i just took a peak. On the right side of me there is a gang 4 girls and a boy there are having fun. I want to join with them too. But you know I'm not always good. I'm not the same person for 24/7 365. Somehow i change my characters that's sucks.
It's 11.53am I'm still hungry and alone. I want to check the notes somehow. At 12 noon other students will also came out of the hall which will make feel more awkward so just let me eat my biscuits and drink some water and main thing I should go to exam hall after using the wash room. Other wise I have to dance in the middle of the exam . Okay somehow i managed to open the biscuit packet without making massive noice. No one is watching me but somehow i Feel like everyone's eyes are on me may it's because I'm just concentrating on my phone, they also might think I'm talking to my boyfriend which is not true because I'm just talking to my self and just writing whatever comes in to my mind. Aahh this is crazy. 1 hour is passes i still have 1 hour and 15 minutes more to the next exams all the students are coming which is so awkward. I hate this 3. Ok now I'm gonna just look up some notes.
I'm eating biscuits there are some crows here just looking at my hands for the biscuit I'm sorry I can't share these but I'm really afraid of them. There is a boy in a few distance from me Apart he is looking straight i feel like he is staring at me.. because I'm sitting here wearing skirt and a crop top. Every thing around me feels insecure.. the world is running on its own but it's feels like the world is revolving around me while all the eyes are on me. The guy i mentioned before staring at me he is behind me now. Is he here to look me no that's not true cause he find his friend another boy.. this is feels like shit bruhh.. how could I not notice that time now is 12.15pm. wow i spend more time here. You know one another thing i have to really really look up the notes but i just can't. My back is paining ouchhh it's hurting me. I want to stand up. And I want to go to wash room too. Then i can write my exams without any distrubance. I didn't even study that's whole another topic .
I did it finally.. please praise me i went to wash room all lone. The funny thing is it dknest has lock But i managed to close the door with my hands. I have to go to exams and 12.45 now it 12.31 oh my god my thoughts are just dancing in my mind. All the students here are studying means while me who is writing something which is totally useless. I just forget my exams are at 1.45 SHITTT!! I have to be here for more 1hour. This sucks i hate this.
As I'm just alone so I took this and wrote..
You won't find anything interesting here. This is just my boring life .. did i even say my name? I'll tell it later. Leave it it doesn't matter, even I hate my name .