It was early in the month of August I knew it was time for mom and I to move again and it's not an issue I could argue with her anymore I just have to comply.the first time she did that I asked her the reason why and she told me she did a change of job later I found out she was trying not to make me and Dad stay in touch I never felt bad about it cause I know she has her own reason to do that.

So I asked "where are we going this time mom"

I'm already packing my stuff cause I know we going to move in a few days. I went to her room and saw two passport on her bed "I guess we're traveling to another country this time, hope it's a good one".it definitely fun to some but actually back then for me it was like a trauma I was five when mom and dad told me they are both getting divorced and I knew there was nothing I can do but to accept it,after the divorce mom brought different men home the next day she said to me in the car "he is my colleague at work we had some business chat" "have a great day in school today dear I will pick you up when I done at work"

"Okay Mom bring your co worker along" immediately I ran off.looking at the passport with those thoughts in my mind , I checked her room and three boxes were packed "mom are you not moving other stuff you only packed your clothes"

"We are going back to Nigeria, we're staying at Ikoyi in Lagos, your grandma is living there so we're staying with her, pack only the things that are necessary we're moving next week".

Confused"mom! " This is unfair you never asked me you don't even care if I'm okay with you moving and of all country you going back to Nigeria , this is so uncalled for mom"

"And so! I decide on whatever I think is right for you , you have no right to question me and you were never of any help to me anyway.

In tears" thanks for reminding me that I'm a mistake,but you are actually the big mistake yourself,you think I'm the one causing the whole issue but it's actually your confused and breakdown mind causing the whole mess on ground " " suit yourself mom" you were never of help to me neither".

We both slept without talking to each other that night .the next day I made many goodbye cards for my friends and neighbors,I received a lot of calls and messages wishing me a new life and happiness but the relationship between me and mum was hell, the house was like a war zone and any time we bump into each other it's like an explosion this was actually going on until D_day

It was actually surprising when I woke up that day and heard voices from the sitting room, I went out to check it was actually my dad and from the look of things I knew they were in an argument that morning ,I stood by the door of my room until dad caught a glimpse of me.

"Hannah" immediately I ran back to my room and hid under the covers at that moment I was actually happy so I thought to myself "will dad actually stop me from going with Mom , will he finally take custody of me, will he beg me to stay and not to leave in the middle of my thoughts he entered

"Hannah" yes dad, I looked at him intensely "why don't you just get dressed so I could drop you and your mom off at the airport I have to get back to work". I was surprised , laughing, in the midst of my laugh were tears "what happen Hannah" nothing dad I'm so happy it's moving day.that was when I realized the only significant thing that existed between mom and dad was just my name not me I was useless to them I was a treasure they can't keep and slowly I'm fading right before my parents ,on his hands I saw a ring "dad are you married" yes "you nailed it real quick dad congratulations" and I thought "was he ever grateful to have me.

We got to the airport and I guessed already "that will be the last time I will see dad"we board the plane and it took off .but life was totally unfair for me some times I keep questioning myself as a kid why me,what did I do to deserve this. eleven years of my life have been hell it's like, as a kid have been shut out from the real world .ever since that night I saw those two argue and it's led to a physical fight of dad beating mom up, light of happiness have been closed. after all those years of moving thinking mom will surely come to her senses one day, I ended up with a grandma have never seen before, and over there have to face a new chapter of my life ,build up a new mirror for myself and create new dreams of the land I knew no one."a California city girl to new ikoyi Lagos base girl".

So I made a decision my stay in Nigeria will be for me and not for anyone ,I make my own decisions since I know mom is here to dump me for one old granny I bless the day my flight landed and this was the beginning of a hard journey and decisions I'm about to make in my life . boarding out of the plane mom and I searched for a taxi , while in the car I thought o f so many things and my plans without having my mom in the picture.

We finally arrived at Grandma's house in ikoyi and I said to myself "I will surely get pass this"

While I was at the booth with Mom bringing out our luggage i looked at the house it was a 3 bedroom apartment with the look of it I think it was only grandma living there, while still looking at the building I saw a an old woman running down the stairs she should probably be in her sixties "that's your grandma "mom said ,wow so my grandma is still young a bit I thought to myself. on her way coming she kept calling a name " Asake ,Asake, Asake "answer her she's calling you ,that is your Yoruba name" surprised and confused I smiled weirdly "yes grandma, how have you been"

"My daughter ,my queen ,you are finally back to me I could only see you in picture ever since you were born but I can actually see you vividly now , I'm so happy to meet you "

Actually I was grateful to have met grandma that day cause her smile when she saw me was like comfort to me and her hug was warm at a moment I told myself to loosen up a bit I can actually trust grandma for my happiness. Things went smoothly for a few weeks I was enjoying the vibe and the environment I made neighborhood friends grandma had me enrolled at a junior school in ikoyi I was placed in basic four then and that was even thanks to grandma connections cause I was enrolled in the middle of the session, everything was going smoothly until that night when mom helped me with my assignment as I was packing my books back to my bag mom told me we have to talk I knew something was wrong when I saw how tense the mood was and Grandma's behaviour was somehow displeasing since have never seen her acted that way before. we both move back to the sitting room and mom broke out the news.

"I'm leaving, you will have to live with your grandma and I promise to check up on you when am less busy". take care of yourself and grandma, don't stress her out while I'm away.

I was really confused that night,on looking at Grandma's eyes it was red and I knew she was about to cry but reading those re eyes grandma was cursing mom from within

"You will surely regret this Maria, mark my words

You will regret this"