All my life no matter the age different two things ever really stuck with me, not money not people hell I lost everything I ever had in life more than any one man should ever let himself lose. But losing what others hold most dear is not indeed a lost to me but the two most important things I lost that I hold most dear too this day is why I made it this far was my pride to move on. An the support I never needed but always wanted.
It dont sound like much coming from a man like me just yet but I had it all threw it all way got it again an let it be taken away. You would think after a few times I would have learn to keep it all to myself but then I wouldnt be writing this story today to tell you how I became the most different honest individual that never wanted to be reconignze by no one but his peers as being well respected an apprieacted to just being who I am. If it wasnt for the love of my woman the lies they thought I believe an tbw lies I had to tell them to get them two see a different view out side of there own body. I made many mistake hell my whole life probably is 45 55 percent of lucky an day of time.
I am no gangster although I do say I am a thug but not because I walk an talk like im not educated, but because the only thing I ever fear is death and not achieving my greatness before so. I am no dad but I father all I am no hero but I save the weak I am no saint I broke more hearts than a famous celebrity prolly encounter an I did this all just by being exactly who I am with no shame or care for the terra I left standing in my way. Yes I know I am a monster but what you will soon find out its not being a monster that frighten me its letting the monster lose control with no guidence but that all change when I open the world up to the utltimate game.
That game shown the world who I am but I never thought it would be this way
But then again I never thought I would live this long to even find the strength within to want change.
And thats the game the chess of change i manage in 10 years to seek guidence in everyone but my own self not because I didnt know how I truly just gave up caring for myself in a way that everyone always care for they selves
I choose to be the most God like Human son an father but with that I became the angel of the devil of deception a true walking time bomb, a firecrackers an everyone love the good ole bad guy even when he didnt love no one but him self until he met three woman although two is important in they own way because they shown me my pain is my own burden alone an one I found the monster that is my mate but she is not yet mine but I m hoping through out this story i give you see why being alone is the only option I have to overcome if I can ever give another my last name.